Horrible...

I went to Closer today. It was the first time that I've ever been to a movie by myself. I thought that I would feel insecure and loneley, but I didn't. However, the movie hurt to watch. I came away from the film with a sick feeling in my stomach. It hurt to see what these four people did to each other.

***WARNING***SPOILERS***

The entire movie is about truth and lies. This is NOT a movie about love. I don't care what the reviews say. The movie has nothing to do with love. The people in the film are all selfish and they are all holding back. They will do anything they can to get what they want and then when things don't work out the way they planned, they use each other as backup. There is no concern for the feelings of others, just their own. The end of the movie results in four completely miserable people. Alice (Jane) is back in New York in the life she ran away from at the beginning of the movie. Dan is alone, still drinking his coffee and he's finally realized that his entire relationship with Alice was a lie because he never even knew her real name. Anna and Larry are still married and he knows she doesn't love him, but he loves her and wants to be with her and he doesn't really care about her feelings, just the fact that he wants to be with her. Then there's Anna...she has no idea what she's doing. She kisses Dan at the beginning of the movie, causing the whole tumultuous problems between Dan and Alice to start. Then, she sees him for a year and even after she's married continues the affair. She is about to get a divorce when her husband forces her to sleep with him again for "old time's sake" and she stays with him out of pity.

***DONE***

I wish I couldn't relate to this movie at all...but I can. I'm sure that it makes me a bad person somehow. It's so sad what people can do to each other and I am so incredibly sorry that I have done this to people that I care about. I'm sorry that I'm selfish and I'm sorry that I broke the trust of the people I care about and I know that they broke mine. I look at the world and I think "wow...we are all so broken." (Thanks Caitlin!) No one is a good person and this movie has no good people in it. There is no "good guy" in this one, much like life. We are all broken, hurtful people and we all hurt ourselves on purpose and hurt the ones we love to get what we think we want. It's movies like this that make me wonder if true love really exists and whether you can really trust anyone, even yourself.