So, I just spent 45 minutes cleaning out my freezer. Yes, it's almost 3am. I don't know why I did it. And my hands are now not typing well. But my freezer is clean and everything is organized and it all fits in nicely. So...I guess that's good. I also refilled my fridge with pop and other beverages, which I've been meaning to do for the last three days.

Okay, so I was up until 5 last night. I should really go to bed.

Tonight is the 3rd night in a row that I've been up late working on ERP. No one in our class can help but think that we're all totally and completely fucked when it comes to Software Engineering. We have a huge test suite due later today at 11am. Right now, my group has over 80 test cases and we haven't coded all of them yet. There isn't enough time to do everything because we have such huge projects for JDE classes. I'm only taking 13 hours, but because I have 10 JDE hours, I'm doing as much homework as I did last semester with a total of 16 hours of classes and 7 JDE classes. I probably won't go to bed for another 2 hours still. This is fucking ridiculous!

Do you ever wonder...

Why does your imagination fade as you grow up?
Why are we here?
How did we get where we are?
If I had just made one different choice, who would I be?
Does God REALLY care?
Who am I supposed to be?
Where am I really supposed to be?
Am I doing what I love?
What's the point?
Why try so hard only to fail every time?
Am I really a bad person?
Why don't I just stop talking?
Does anyone love me?
Am I doing what I should be doing?
Is anyone else faking it?
Why am I not normal?
What is normal?
Why does every one else have it better than I do?
Why can't I look like someone else?
Why is everything good until you spend enough time working on it?
Does the world make everyone else sad?

I don't know...maybe I'm just crazy...

I'm sitting in the reading room at Love Library wishing that I was actually doing something productive. Supposedly I'm proctoring a study session for Phi Mu, but no one has shown up to "check in" as of right now. I've been here since 7pm and will be here till 10, but I'm running out of things to do. I can't study here as easily as I can in the privacy of my dorm room. Anyway, back to the boredom...

So, I went to a nice little get together, hosted by my friend Julie (who's awesome), and I realized that I hadn't seen even close to half of the films nominated for Oscars this year. While I'm sure they are all "good" films, there hasn't been a LOT of publicity about most of them and overall, I hadn't heard about any knockout performances. The award show was nice to watch, but I don't know that the films were really THAT good this year. Maybe it was just an off year...