I talked to my mom today and it has been confirmed that my aunt's cancer is out of remission. She had cancer on her pancreas in late summer/early fall of 2003. Fortunately, she was able to go to May clinic where the doctors removed it surgically. Now, after two completely clean checkups, it's back. If that wasn't enough, she's waiting for mamogram results because she might have breast cancer as well. It couldn't have come at a worse time for my family. Her husband's daughter is expecting a baby this summer and my cousin is graduating from high school (the last one of the grandkids) and his sister is planning a wedding for June. If things weren't emotional enough and stressful enough with plans, now we all have to figure out how to deal with the pain and concern of cancer.

This week has been incredibly busy. Tomorrow morning at 11am, my ERP group has a deliverable due. We're doing okay on it in terms of getting things done, but I don't know what the professor is going to think of the result. No matter what happens, our class can't seem to satisfy him. There is also a computer science assignment due (another bomb that needs diffusing) on Friday. Just once it would be nice to say that there's nothing that needs to be done...nothing I could be working on.

If that wasn't enough, just when I thought that next week was going to be less hassle, we have a software engineering quiz, a computer science quiz and a business test (yes, I know it's techincally a quiz...but quizzes aren't 10 pages long!) next week. Why can't JDE just leave us alone for once?

My friend Meagan and I have determined that the sophomore year is the worst year of the program and regardless of the class, the sohpomores will always be the most bitter out of all the students. One would think that JDE would try to help the situation, but instead, they add another class to 2nd semester sophomore year, creating even MORE work for all of us.

I've officially hit information and emotional overload.

Life is so very delicate in both senses of the word. The pure nature and exquisite workmanship of the life God created for all of us is just utterly amazing and yet it is so easily destroyed by a few cells slowly multiplying within a human body. You would think that with all the knowledge of "science" we could figured out how to destroy a few cells. Instead, they give us a "painless" death to look forward to preceded by days, weeks or even months of agony of being sick from the drugs meant to slowly kill the disease growing, slowly eating away at everything good and healthy. Then, when things get bad enough, the doctors will provide you with a lovely concoction of drugs to help you forget about the pain while your family looks on in agony wishing there was something they could do to either ease your pain or their own.

How do you live when you know there's not much time left? Is that really life, or are you just passing time? Is it harder to know you're going to die or watching someone you love die with the knowledge that there's nothing you can do to stop it? Why is it that when a life ends, the void is so barren that you know no one will be able to fill it?

Spring break wasn't as wild and crazy as I had planned. However, it was very relaxing, so I'm thankful for that. I went to the doctor at the Health Center here on campus because I thought I had a sinus infection. However, he said that I didn't have one, but I did have an eye-infection. So, I spent the entire spring break putting eye-drops in my eyes five times a day and taking decongestants twice a day.

I slept and watched movies for the entire break. I have now seen Pitch Black, The Chronicles of Riddick, Snatch, Constantine, The Incredibles, Eurotrip (again), Ice Pirates (very stupid movie), Win a Date with Tad Hamilton, part of The Order, Van Helsing, Starship Troopers 2, Gothika (again), and I'm sure there's more but I can't remember all of them. I also had the pleasure of sleeping past 3 in the afternoon on two separate occasions. All in all, a very relaxing break, but I'm still sick.

I did finally go to another doctor yesterday and they gave me even more pills because my eye is still infected and now my ears are infected and I'm still having sinus problems! I'm starting to feel a little better, but we'll see what happens as the week progresses. I feel so old because I'm taking six prescription pills per day...