"This will hurt."

"I know who you are. I love you. I love everything about you that hurts."

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"Depressives don't [to be happy]. They want to be unhappy to confirm they're depressed. If they were happy they couldn't be depressed anymore. They'd have to go out into the world and live. Which can be depressing."

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"Why isn't love enough?"

"Where is this "love"? I can't see it, I can't touch it. I can't feel it. I can hear it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words. "

"Don't stop loving me. I can see it draining out of you. It's me, remember? It was a stupid thing to do and it meant nothing. If you love me enough, you'll forgive me."

"Ever seen a human heart? It looks like a fist wrapped in blood."

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"What's so great about the truth? Try lying for a change, it's the currency of the world."

"Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off."

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"You've ruined my life."

Silent night, broken night
All is fallen when you take your flight
I found some hate for you just for show
You found some love for me, thinking I'd go
Don't keep me from crying to sleep
Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, moonlit night
Nothing's changed, nothing is right
I should be stronger than weeping alone
You should be weaker than sending me home
I can't stop you fighting to sleep
Sleep in heavenly peace

Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. Then, when you finally say, "Okay God...I give up," He takes over and the sky finally starts to clear.

I didn't know the definition of overload until I finally saw the edge with my own eyes. It's scary and it hurt.

I've just spent the entire night hanging out with friends and talking. I was so excited to have Kyros come to visit from Omaha. He, Meagan and I all went out to look at the stars after Becca's birthday dinner and ended up sitting in the middle of nowhere for over three hours talking. It's been a long time since I've had such a long heartfelt talk about life. We covered everything from school, to frienships, to relationships, to God, to life and death. It's so hard to find close friends you can trust with anything but so refreshing when you have it. Then, when we got back to Kauffman, we talked with Beermann, Johnson, and Moo for another two and a half hours. It's been a great night. It's nice to have some quality time with people. It's so rare, but it means so much.

It's raining outside. I love it when it rains in the spring. Everything outside smells so fresh and new. You can tell that life is starting over again. It's warm enough out where the rain feels inviting and I just want to change into some old clothes and go splash around in the puddles.

The rain makes me think that either God is crying or he's reaching out to touch the earth with small fingertips of water. I just want to look straight into the sky and smile because I can feel God touching my face with every raindrop.

It makes me think of songs like "Foolish Games" by Jewel or "Kiss the Rain" by Billie Myers or even "If God Would Send His Angels" by U2.

I'm standing in my room in soaked clothes because it started pouring about 5 minutes ago and I decided to go out on the balcony and jump around in the rain. It was SO much fun!!! I wish it would rain like this all the time!